hate you but love you

sometimes... eventhough you like that someone so much, you can't just like him without knowing the real him. know something but not everything about him. and i mean really really know him. i guess i just have to let it go this time around. sad but it's for my own good. you know my love for you won't fade away... T_T

hungry but full

yesterday, i didn't eat a single thing till 9.30pm at nusan were i had nasi mutiara. the rice is so dry that i couldn't swallow the food. what a waste. there goes my money. if mama tau habis kena bebel. this morning too i don't have the appetite to eat. i just cooked maggie but i can't swallow it. what's happening to me?

my handphone went dead for a week so i didn't text my mum at all. i usually text her everyday. yesterday around asar i received an offline message from nadhirah.

Nadhirah Abd Karim: hey
Nadhirah Abd Karim: if u on9 tell me k
Nadhirah Abd Karim: ur mom cnt contct u
Nadhirah Abd Karim: shes been worried sick
Nadhirah Abd Karim: so do text me thru fon k
Nadhirah Abd Karim: ur mom email u un x jwb
Nadhirah Abd Karim: its been a week sab
Nadhirah Abd Karim: just wana make sure ur o
Nadhirah Abd Karim: ok*

i was like mama bagi email? x dapat pun. since when plak mama bg email? so i was looking for my malaysian friend. then i saw ramesh's name. a friend of mine from usm. so i text-ed her

sabrina_halim88: u...
sabrina_halim88: nk mntk tlg blh?
nur ramizah: YUP
nur ramizah: sorry
sabrina_halim88: huhuhu
nur ramizah: td ade org mai booth
nur ramizah: nape?
sabrina_halim: its kQ
nur ramizah: nak mintak tlg per?
sabrina_halim: sory kcu
nur ramizah: takpe2
nur ramizah: hehe
sabrina_halim88: text kn my mum
nur ramizah: no worries dear
sabrina_halim88: 0123199764
sabrina_halim88: kata kt dia i ok
sabrina_halim8: my battery is dead
sabrina_halim88: charger xde
sabrina_halim88: nak kol asyik xdpt
nur ramizah: alrite
sabrina_halim88: u kata la u kwn i from usm
sabrina_halim88: i contact u through internet
sabrina_halim88: klu ckp ym dia x fham la plak
sabrina_halim88: sory sshkn u k!
nur ramizah: soccay
sabrina_halim: later pape u just tell me
nur ramizah: okayhh
nur ramizah: alrite
sabrina_halim88: thank u so much
sabrina_halim88: luv u
nur ramizah: luv u
nur ramizah: i da sent
sabrina_halim88: ok
sabrina_halim88: dia ada blas?
nur ramizah: not yet
nur ramizah: huhu
sabrina_halim88: ooo...
sabrina_halim88: ok
sabrina_halim88: sory sngt sshkn u
sabrina_halim88: i bru pndh rmh
nur ramizah: takpe la
sabrina_halim88: net x stabil lg
nur ramizah : not a big deal la babe
sabrina_halim88 : ssh nk contact dia
nur ramizah: ouh
nur ramizah: i now ni kat megamall kuantan
sabrina_halim: la..
sabrina_halim88: yeke
nur ramizah: ad prmotion for e-government
sabrina_halim88: watpe?
nur ramizah: i bertugas
sabrina_halim88: u under ur company la eh?
sabrina_halim88: how's it so far?
nur ramizah: just jage booth
sabrina_halim88: oo...
sabrina_halim88: hows ur job so far?
nur ramizah: okay la
nur ramizah: huhu
nur ramizah: jap
nur ramizah: ur mom da reply
nur ramizah: she said
nur ramizah: wslm..syukur dpt berita thru u..today is her brother bday
nur ramizah: i'm so worried
nur ramizah: anyway kirim salam
nur ramizah: tell her
nur ramizah: to get a new battery
nur ramizah: or giee news thru nad
sabrina_halim88: hahaha
sabrina_halim88: my mum 2 mmg
sabrina_halim88: dia cuak cket
sabrina_halim88: klu blh sruh i text dia every day je
sabrina_halim88: hahaha
sabrina_halim88: thank u so much ramesh
sabrina_halim88: u saved my life
sabrina_halim88: hahaha
sabrina_halim88: dh 1 week i x xcntct dia
sabrina_halim88: dh x tentu hala dh dia
sabrina_halim88: hahaha
nur ramizah: hehe
nur ramizah: no hal la babe
nur ramizah: heheh
nur ramizah: k la
nur ramizah: i nak wrap up da ni
nur ramizah: heheeh
sabrina_halim88: ok2
sabrina_halim88: thanks again dear
nur ramizah: catch yoy later babe
nur ramizah: hehe
nur ramizah: bye2
sabrina_halim88: alright
sabrina_halim88: tc
nur ramizah: u too
nur ramizah: anything nak i reply to ur mom
sabrina_halim88: xpyh kot
sabrina_halim88: ckup la just that dia dh lega
sabrina_halim88: thanks btw
nur ramizah: okayh
nur ramizah: u r most welcomre
nur ramizah: welcome
nur ramizah: alrite then
nur ramizah: daa~
sabrina_halim88: daa

then later i ym-ed with nad through haziq. dapat lagi kena bebel from nad. hahaha. totally a hari-kena-marah day for me. one more from the landlord coz we didn't switch off the motor. it's not my fault though.

my mum sure worried sick about me. if i go back home late sure she'll be texting me every 30 minutes. chill k ma! sorry to make you feel like this. don't worry. i didn't forget khal's birthday. as soon as the net is stable, i'll straight away call you yah!

p/s: to dino, this is the ramesh i've been talking bout. haha

06.06.09 - happy 13th birthday to khaliq

to my one and only brother - happy birthday khal. you're officially a teenager now. kakak will always love you. sorry can't call you right now. the net is extremely crazy. will call you later k!

psycho bitches

kak nani, aten and i have turned into psycho bitches. yes we are! so what? got a problem with that?

30.05.09 - happy 22nd birthday to kak tirah

sorry for the late wishes kak tirah. you know i always love you no matter what happens. 1 week a bit late huh? i'm such a bad person. really3x sorry