suicide note

it's been a while since i last updated my blog. no mood. im totally depress right now. don't have the mood to do anything. it's true that i feel like killing myself. i'm so fed-up with all the things that happen to me. why am i being so suey lately? it's like !@#$%^&*. right now, i just need my family especially my mum and dad. been crying all the time. i don't wana go back to egypt. i wana stay in malaysia. i'm so pathethic. if only there's a way to get out of this situation. people keep on bringing it up and i feel so irritated by it. just cut the talk people. can't you just have some respect towards the others? again !@#$%^. god... i just hope that you will help me out this one last time. i'm begging you with all my heart. there's no other place i can seek help from.