Friday, April 24, 2009
i hang out with my housemates last night - kak nani and aten. we were chatting, laughing. it's like a slumber party. so she talked about people in malaysia right now trying to be mat salleh and how much she hate it. it was like a pang to me. am i 1 of them? at least i think i'm not. i don't speak english all the time. i speak malay without the slang. i admit that at home my family and i speak half malay and half english. we don't speak chinese though i'm quarter chinese. my grams who just passed away for nearly 10 months now was a chinese but she's a muslim since she was a kid as she was adopted by a malay family. all of my chinese family can't speak mandarin. but i can speak conversational mandarin thanks to my all my chinese firends. being in a class of 3 malays out of 44 students kinda hard actually. you have to gain their trusts for you to participate in any presentations. honestly, my friends all don't speak malay though their malay papers were way better than mine. they can't even speak their own language. can you just imagine that their mother tongue is english? i was like - what a total waste! i mean being a chinese but you can't speak and being an indian but you can't speak. so being in those situation made you speak in english all the time at school. when i enter the matrix, then only i started to speak in fully malay as there were malays in major. though sometimes i mixed up english and malay, i am proud to be a malay and i don't have the slang. just ask all my friends if you don't trust me. right guys?